Today is a neutral day for me. I had to let my new 23 yrs old sub go because of our difference.
I do not feel that he can serve me the way a sub is supposed to serve a Domme.
I was his first Mistress and too many emotions got involved and then confusion set in his mind.
The 1st major issue was our age. He was the first sub I took under the age of 25 and when we sessioned we got too close and he couldn't handle that.
To me... age is a number,But to him after he pursued me for days it became a problem.
There were also other factors which had me come to this decision.
When a sub serves me, I should be first on his list and this was not the case with this sub.
He thought that his friends and his lifestyle were more important.
He was also worried about what people would think of him and it was making him confused and closed off.
You cannot tell or ask me one thing and change it to what you feel it should be. Doesn't work that way.
So finally after talking to him and playing with him last nite I felt there is not that strong connection anymore and have decided to let him go.
I feel this is what he wanted because in his real life he is an Alpha male and cannot come to terms that......
a sub is a sub always with his mistress not when you see it fits your needs!
I love the pain,teasing and denying that was given to him,But I do not feel that he appreciated it or me.
So on that note....
I will not take anyone under the age of 25.
I will not take anyone who doesn't have any training.
I will not take anyone who cannot tribute.
I will not take anyone who feels that he has to be between my legs to serve me.
I will not take anyone who feels his lifestyle is more important than serving me.
I will not take anyone who cannot control his feelings and turns into emotional shit.
I will not take anyone who cannot appreciate the gifts that I allow him to have.
Now who ever doesn't like these rules can go FUCK OFF!
I do not feel that he can serve me the way a sub is supposed to serve a Domme.
I was his first Mistress and too many emotions got involved and then confusion set in his mind.
The 1st major issue was our age. He was the first sub I took under the age of 25 and when we sessioned we got too close and he couldn't handle that.
To me... age is a number,But to him after he pursued me for days it became a problem.
There were also other factors which had me come to this decision.
When a sub serves me, I should be first on his list and this was not the case with this sub.
He thought that his friends and his lifestyle were more important.
He was also worried about what people would think of him and it was making him confused and closed off.
You cannot tell or ask me one thing and change it to what you feel it should be. Doesn't work that way.
So finally after talking to him and playing with him last nite I felt there is not that strong connection anymore and have decided to let him go.
I feel this is what he wanted because in his real life he is an Alpha male and cannot come to terms that......
a sub is a sub always with his mistress not when you see it fits your needs!
I love the pain,teasing and denying that was given to him,But I do not feel that he appreciated it or me.
So on that note....
I will not take anyone under the age of 25.
I will not take anyone who doesn't have any training.
I will not take anyone who cannot tribute.
I will not take anyone who feels that he has to be between my legs to serve me.
I will not take anyone who feels his lifestyle is more important than serving me.
I will not take anyone who cannot control his feelings and turns into emotional shit.
I will not take anyone who cannot appreciate the gifts that I allow him to have.
Now who ever doesn't like these rules can go FUCK OFF!